Angi Aymond

Growing in wisdom. Walking in grace.


Today is my Mama’s birthday. She would have been 87 years old. Happy birthday, Mama!!

But as usual, what I’m thinking about most today is me. And my own birth.

No one ever spoke much to me about the day I was born. Nothing in fact. Which is probably why I have spoken and written in great detail about the experience of birthing all three of my children. But that’s a post for another day!

If I could take us all back to my day of birth, I’m pretty sure we’d see something very telling. From a view of 56 years later, I am certain I was born with something in my hand. A hammer. A bottle of glue. Possibly duct tape. Because I was born a fixer. And it’s quite unfortunate. For me, and anyone I love.

Why? Because I see all things broken. And all broken things. And I want to fix things and systems, and people, and relationships. And when I can’t I am tempted to run. Because I either must fix (which I really cannot), attempt to fix, or just not know it needs fixing.

Yes. That hammer, tape, and glue in my hand has done much more damage than that which I perceived as needing fixing.

And don’t worry. I’ve needed fixing more than anything. Or anyone.

Whew. Im exhausted just admitting all of that to you!

But I have laid down the hammer. The tape. And the glue. Oh, I pick it up from time to time. I may even sleep with one of them on occasion
But the One Who loves me… the One who is so patient with me…the One who can be fully trusted, continues to whisper “Give it to me.” And He means the hammer. The tape. And the glue.

Cast all your cares on Him because He cares for you.

1 PETER 5:7

Oh, He well means the situation. The loved one. The friend. But He knows I’m not fully trusting Him until I hand over my tools.

Living in tension isn’t easy. Living with uncertainty isn’t easy. It’s so hard and I confess I don’t much like it. But friends, without either, there would be no need for trust. And my relationship with God is based fully on my trust in Him.

You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you. Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock.”

-Isaiah 26:3-4

Are there things that I believe to be certainly true. Absolutely. But it’s all held together by my trust in Him.

So, if you see me around and I’m holding a hammer. The tape or the glue…you all, each one of you, have my permission to remind me to lay it down.

And give it to the Carpenter who uses all of those things much better than I can.

Be still and know that I am God.

PSALM 46:10

4 responses to “A FIXER UPPER”

  1. Your message is one for me that is not an easy task. To lay it down. Give it to our Father. Thank you for reminding me to lay it at the foot of the cross and know He can fix anything.


  2. I know the Hammer. Tape and glue. Gotta fix it.
    Fixed a lot of things a lot of times. Then God quit letting me fix them. To know that He’s the Fixer.
    Hard lesson. He let my Hammer bounce back and hit me. I got all tangled up in the Tape and all stuck together by the Glue. What a mess!
    God sure is good at healing bruises and cleaning up sticky, stuck-together messes.
    Like you…just gotta keep handing over the Hammer. Tape and glue.
    Thank you, Angi, for the reminder. There is a situation. God reminded me gently last night to let Him fix it. And here He’s gently reminding me with your beautiful testimony. He never fails to speak to me through your words of experience and learned wisdom.
    Love and thanks,
    ~Gena Kay


    1. I’m always so grateful when my words find soft hearts upon which to land!! Love you girl!!


  3. Very good message that we all need to remember. Thank you.


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