Angi Aymond

We all live in the unknown.

Oh, we may fool ourselves into thinking  our lives are mapped out. We set goals for ourselves in all areas of our lives.  Financial. Career. Children. Health.  Retirement.

But the unknown-ness of this world still finds us. 

It found me.

I’m sitting here on a table, pecking away on my phone, just having had a slightly invasive procedure. Clearly, having no more information than before.

My head is aware of the possibilities. But my heart is calm. In fact, over the weekend, I invited anxiety to join me, but she declined. I extended the invitation more than once, but she never showed.

There was a time when this little scenario would have wrecked me. (And a bit of wreckage may still find its way.)

But today,  in the middle of not knowing, my heart is calm.

How? Why?

Because my Jesus is already there. Is that too cliche’?

Not for me.

You might say, “Your faith is strong.” And I would say,  “No. It’s not my faith.  It’s the One in whom I’ve placed my faith. He makes me strong because I know that He is omniscient. Omnipotent. Omnipresent. He knows all things and can do all things. And He will do what’s best.

But even greater still, He is with me now and will be with me then. Whatever then looks like.

I think I may have waited a lifetime for a heart tethered this tightly to the One who loves me so deeply.

A lifetime to understand that His presence is better than any thing.

He is better than the healing He offers. Better than the saving He extends. Still better than the gifts He gives. 

Oh, yes. I find myself waiting. Again.  But He is already there. So, I wait in confidence. Not in the confidence that all will work out in my favor. I wait, knowing He is with me and His love is enough. 

Now. And then.

But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.

Psalm 59:16